It all came so naturally

Falling was easy, gravity had me.

Loving was easy, it happened despite me.

Holding her was heaven, something I couldn't believe.

Now it feels like losing her happened without me.

What was the one thing I could have done better, stayed ditched a plane, been more clever.

Blocked out the noise and only hear her, but now it seems that nothing is left but the burn.

A deep wound a hard hit the armor was off.. So easy to get destroyed just a flame and a moth.

as black as the night can get
everything is safer now
there's always a way to forget
once you learn to find a way how

in the blur of serenity
where did everything get lost?
the flowers of naivete
buried in a layer of frost

the smell of sunshine
I remember sometimes

thought he had it all before they called his bluff
found out that his skin just wasn't thick enough
wanted to go back to how it was before
thought he lost everything
then he lost a whole lot more

La di da di da di dahh

Today is weird, I woke up before anyone else and was just kind of be bopping around the house with my iPod on and had a moment of complete disorientation, it felt like the first moment of consciousness after getting knocked out. I just froze for a second my head swimming and bon ivers filling my ears and then like a switch things just seemed like they were going to be ok. I know this is odd to say the least and yet just another in a long line of signs i'm likely mental. That I am also ok with, I'm me and if you don't like that ... well I don't care it's nto worth my time to jump up and down screaming " fuck you " and hating people who don't like me. There are plenty of people in my life who do and I could be sp[ending that time with them..

I think I'll go do that now actually..

Later stalkers.