Friday, May 27, 2011

An escape

I hide in these books now, kurt vonnegut is my therapist at this time. So perhaps here i will remain till such a time as sanity finds me once more. Now I want nothing more than to find my way through these storms and to a calmer sea

Thursday, April 21, 2011

so here it is

things are lining up, plans have changed and vanished but now I'm the one dictating the pace and path. This should be fun.

Sunday, October 17, 2010

A song for a friend.

And after the storm,
I run and run as the rains come
And I look up, I look up,
on my knees and out of luck,
I look up.

Night has always pushed up day
You must know life to see decay
But I won't rot, I won't rot
Not this mind and not this heart,
I won't rot.

And I took you by the hand
And we stood tall,
And remembered our own land,
What we lived for.

And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.

And now I cling to what I knew
I saw exactly what was true
But oh no more.
That's why I hold,
That's why I hold with all I have.
That's why I hold.

I won't die alone and be left there.
Well I guess I'll just go home,
Oh God knows where.
Because death is just so full and man so small.
Well I'm scared of what's behind and what's before.

And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Just about says it all

How you do that thing you do...

How does she do it, so sure I was over her so sure I was strong so sure I could be just a friend. Then her voice in my ear and nothings clear anymore. I guess it just happens that way sometimes. Just shrug my shoulders and keep moving forward only thing i know to do. To quote slug " Fuck you Lucy for leaving me. Fuck you Lucy for not needin' me.
I wanna say fuck you because i still love you.No, I'm not OK and I don't know what to do.

Thursday, June 3, 2010