Sunday, October 17, 2010

A song for a friend.

And after the storm,
I run and run as the rains come
And I look up, I look up,
on my knees and out of luck,
I look up.

Night has always pushed up day
You must know life to see decay
But I won't rot, I won't rot
Not this mind and not this heart,
I won't rot.

And I took you by the hand
And we stood tall,
And remembered our own land,
What we lived for.

And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.

And now I cling to what I knew
I saw exactly what was true
But oh no more.
That's why I hold,
That's why I hold with all I have.
That's why I hold.

I won't die alone and be left there.
Well I guess I'll just go home,
Oh God knows where.
Because death is just so full and man so small.
Well I'm scared of what's behind and what's before.

And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.
And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.
Get over your hill and see what you find there,
With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Just about says it all

How you do that thing you do...

How does she do it, so sure I was over her so sure I was strong so sure I could be just a friend. Then her voice in my ear and nothings clear anymore. I guess it just happens that way sometimes. Just shrug my shoulders and keep moving forward only thing i know to do. To quote slug " Fuck you Lucy for leaving me. Fuck you Lucy for not needin' me.
I wanna say fuck you because i still love you.No, I'm not OK and I don't know what to do.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Too the four who keep me anchored to this mortal coil

So take this how you want, but know i mean it
I want you all to know that I'm scared
Now my fuckin' crooked soul never faced a monster like the last few months
Never in my whole life...I wish I could explain this better (I can't)
But the pieces won't formulate it to anything even close to cohesive
So I guess this is my feeble way to thank you
Four soldiers that extended something sacred off the purity of kindness
I owe you all my life and please don't argue with that statement
'cause without y'all I may not have a life to offer, take it
Thank you..
I wish i could explain this better. (thank you)
I'm sorry for burdening your pleasures. (thank you)
I love you all with all that's left of me. (thank you)
For helping try to kill what made a mess of me. (thank you)
Somehow, someway. (thank you)
I'ma get you back someday. (thank you)
Just gotta figure this all out...(thank you)

Sunday, March 28, 2010

It all came so naturally

Falling was easy, gravity had me.

Loving was easy, it happened despite me.

Holding her was heaven, something I couldn't believe.

Now it feels like losing her happened without me.

What was the one thing I could have done better, stayed ditched a plane, been more clever.

Blocked out the noise and only hear her, but now it seems that nothing is left but the burn.

A deep wound a hard hit the armor was off.. So easy to get destroyed just a flame and a moth.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

as black as the night can get
everything is safer now
there's always a way to forget
once you learn to find a way how

in the blur of serenity
where did everything get lost?
the flowers of naivete
buried in a layer of frost

the smell of sunshine
I remember sometimes

thought he had it all before they called his bluff
found out that his skin just wasn't thick enough
wanted to go back to how it was before
thought he lost everything
then he lost a whole lot more

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Friday, March 19, 2010

La di da di da di dahh

Today is weird, I woke up before anyone else and was just kind of be bopping around the house with my iPod on and had a moment of complete disorientation, it felt like the first moment of consciousness after getting knocked out. I just froze for a second my head swimming and bon ivers filling my ears and then like a switch things just seemed like they were going to be ok. I know this is odd to say the least and yet just another in a long line of signs i'm likely mental. That I am also ok with, I'm me and if you don't like that ... well I don't care it's nto worth my time to jump up and down screaming " fuck you " and hating people who don't like me. There are plenty of people in my life who do and I could be sp[ending that time with them..

I think I'll go do that now actually..

Later stalkers.